I think I give great advice, I just don’t take my own.

So what’s been up.. I’ve been really busy, and really tired lately. I was hoping to post on here earlier but LiveJournal was down last night when I was up, so that has delayed this entry even more. The 30 hour famine last weekend went pretty good. I had a lot of fun with the kids, I was just really disappointed that I couldn’t stay longer and had to work on Saturday. Even though Nic wasn’t able to go to the famine with me, he fasted the same time I did. So we had to stick it out until midnight on Saturday to complete the full 30 hours.. To pass some time we went over to Born to Run at Capital. I went last year as well. It’s pretty ridiculous, but we had nothing better to do. Basically if you care to know, it’s a bunch of naked people racing. Girls and guys alike. Don’t ask me why I went again..lol. So after that I headed back to Nic’s and we had a bunch of pizza and chips. We were starving and we both had a beer and it was the strongest buzz of one beer I’ve ever got in my life. So if you ever want a cheap way to get drunk, just fast for 30 hours!

Monday I hung out with Andrew and we stopped by Stephanie Brady’s 21st Bday at the Ugly Tuna. We stayed for an hour or so, it was fun! That was good times, and then me and Andrew saw United 93. That’s not a good movie to see when you’re slightly intoxicated. But it was a good movie.. We then just hung out the rest of the night at his place and I crashed over there and went to work the next morning. Let the good times roll..

That’s pretty much all I’ve been doing besides working and looking for that job I’d thought I’d have found by now. I’m starting to get jealous of my friends who are getting married next month. It’s stupid jealously though. I’m not really even mad, in fact this past week has been great for me, but just annoyed for stupid reasons. It’s starting to hit me that my friends are getting married and I’m more and more just wishing I had a girlfriend each and every time I think about it. I feel like by not finding a job yet and not being in a relationship that I sometimes don’t have much to be happy about, and when I’m like that I’m stupid and worry. Which is dumb. I’m really hoping things take a turn in my life, because I honestly don’t know where I’m headed in life and I thought by this time I’d have it figured out by now.

I’m ridiculous. For instance, when I’m really angry at a girl, even though I try to act otherwise, I’d totally forget about it and forgive them and still like them because I’m one of few people who can forgive almost anybody. Even tough stuff. That’s kind of where I’m at right now. Some people would probably disagree and argue I have no willpower, but I can’t help it. At the end of the day I realize I’m not perfect and neither is anybody else. I think the only reason I got mad, er get*… mad.. is because I think I’m better than everyone else so therefore I have the right to judge. Which is terrible. I’m not, and I need to work on that. I’m not any better. I’ve made mistakes too. I have flaws. Sorry.. lol.. I feel like ranting. I’m just lonely. Would somebody just like me all ready.

I swear I’m fine though.. lol. Like I said this past week has been great! Things are definitely better for me than earlier last month. Tonight I just did work, group, then bible study at Nic’s. That’s my thoughtful post for the evening. Good Night! 😉

Ok, I’m going to bed. I’m tired as usual. Another long day at work tomorrow. But then two days off. Can’t wait!